I just discovered a new word today and it is rather empowering really. I pride myself on correcting people on their misinterpretation of Feminism – it is simply wanting gender equality, that’s it. There is no ulterior motive, women are not programmed that way, and the exploitation is simply a result of a blatantly celebrated misogynistic culture, so misogynistic in fact, that the average person has lost the ability to distinguish between gender discrimination and what is just simply normal and culturally acceptable. We live in a sexist world, not just a little bit, there is a pure hatred of women, especially women exhibiting self-esteem and independence of any kind.
With my current personal situation, truly it has brought me to physical pain and illness just digesting what a complete self-centered jerk Hazel’s dad is. I did not know people could even be as horrible as he is and than I realized, he’s just a spoiled child and a product of a very bad society thus I truly feel nothing for him and have tried (unsuccessfully) to leave him several times. There is no love story here, he was a mistake and I do not believe he is a good person, I have left him but he uses a broken system to force my child and I back here repeatedly to rot with him in his wasted and dysfunctional life. I have been told, the only power you have as a woman in this world is to leave a bad man, well, not even that is true in Albuquerque, NM.
The worst irony of modern misogyny is men do not feel women are good enough to work side-by-side with them and earn an equal wage in spite of superior education and qualifications, yet they feel ZERO, ZILCH, NADA financial responsibility for their own offspring and families. In this irrational, cruel, sexist world, women and mother’s are now expected to not only raise their children to perfection without physical help but ALSO to pull ALL of the financial weight too and in my case, I have been literally forced to reside here based on a compulsive liars’ delusional assertions of personal and financial stability. I have no family here besides my daughter who is my heart and has been sickeningly exploited. With people this truly selfish, who want to both maintain and eradicate the status quo depending on their own uncontrolled and irrational narcissism, how in the world can an enlightened woman not feel misandry?
I actually have respect for (some) old-school male bigots, for the most part, as they understood their own biases and felt at least a grain of responsibility to their children and families (I’m talking cultural norms here, sure there are always bad seeds). With the current state of denial, lies, delusion and untreated mental disorder that the modern man chooses and is culturally encouraged to suffer, things have gone from okay to just really, really bad. If there are zero societal boundaries and “anything” is viewed as possible and acceptable, we have created a huge mess for ourselves and a generation absent of personal responsibility.
Misogyny has become so cruel and detached, it seeks to abuse its victims in the worst ways possible. Truly, I am not a lesbian as I have loved men throughout my life, or at least I think I have, but after the things I have repeatedly witnessed from both sexist men and women alike (yes there are plenty of self-hating women buying into this crap) I have lost all hope for a better future for my child and I. There is no point in hope because the abusive cycle we are trapped in prides itself on killing it and thus ensuring Hazel’s white, male, utterly and completely useless father gets everything he pretends to want in life (he obviously has no clue and should NEVER make decisions for himself nor anyone else until he seeks treatment for severe mental illness) at the expense of our happiness and mostly what he wants is to hurt us for his own shortcomings, just like all of the other bitter and hate-filled misogynists before him.